seriously.

the way you answered the question just proves to me even more that i made the right choice.
im SO over it...
i was looking for some kind of sign to tell me that i was making the wrong decision but i guess..
i wasnt.


saying im not emo contradicts this picture.. honestly not though
but i had fun editing it. :]



photo: kay minimo.


PS: ive decided to pick up a new hobby of photography/editing.
AND my dad is possibly going to grant me the priviledge of having 1 of his 7 cameras.
hoooray!

airport.

just arrived and it feels good to be away.

but rewind..
i think the airport is one of the most amazing places on earth.
we see people we may never see again.
people from all over the world.
i love sitting back and just observing..
"i people watch" :]
as creepy as that may sound..
people are just soooo great.

im living this weekend on a positive note
AND.. i WILL have fun :]

thank you God for getting us here safely.
night everyone...

YOU, mmhmm YOU, your something special.
hope this made your day/night...

<33 lmm

feel so.

ALONE..
im tired of feeling this way.
im tired of crying about thing i shouldnt be crying about.
im tired of having your mixed emotions thrown at me.

i feel so alone.
i miss home..
i miss my mom and dad.
i miss my bestfriend.
i miss tons of friends who ive taken forgranted.

i feel like your fake.
ugh! i feel like the person you are is the person i ____
but the one person who's dragging me down.

you make me cry.
you make me sad.
you make me confused.
you take me forgranted.
you will never ever know how i feel.

like:love

i hate the fact that i could find something to relate to in every song.
its ridiculous..
but here i am, listening to the same one over and over again.
i guess in a way it gives me some sense of control, comfort..
to know someone feels the same way?

theres someone out there, you know who you are..
who loves me unconditionally
and theres no doubt in my mind that it isn't flawed..
i just wish... we were on the same paths.
but not now.. maybe it'll happen to cross later on?
..i promise that regardless of what we are, who we are, what we choose to do ..
that i have your back and you have mine.
you're my bestfriend, and you know me on a higher plateau than anyone does & for that..
i know this isnt some kind of bitchass ending.. its only the beginning.
you have definitely set some kind of standard and measurig stick for everyone who has and will come into my life.
i adore you.

whats next?: a chance to see & explore.

realizations.

lately, lately, lately..
i've been on some kind of quest..
for someone, or something.. to fill this emptiness?

talked to a friend and he got me thinking..
"you dont need someone to help you find that connection to God, its between you and Him"

from that point on i guess ive realized ive been looking for something i dont really need..

my sister sent me an email today..
"God doesnt give you what you want, he gives you what you need."

& just maybe, maybe, maybe your ONLY what ive wanted, not what ive needed.

...i have to find my way on my own.