tumblr.

http://loveleeeee.tumblr.com/post/1064887704/hungry

movies.

i recently watched two movies that i thought were the best & i highly recommend them :)

DESPICABLE ME 

             &

INCEPTION 

they're two very different movies (obviously) but great in their own genres... you wont be disappointed :) 

glad i got to watch it with my BESTEST friend

love, always

lee

hot.

wow summer is absolutely making everyone feel its presence.

(despite the weird drizzles and gloominess) 

LAST NIGHT or this morning i woke up at 4am.. the heat was merciless!!!

so i turned on the AC and played some sodoku (hahaha).. it finally got chilly.. COLD enough for me to go under my comforter and it was game on. my sleep was fabulous :] 

but it only lasted 3 hrs and now i sit here AWAKE .. even though i dont have class. 

ANYWAYS, i cant wait to see what today will bring :]

im getting the vibe of something GREAT or atleast good :] 

obviously, regardless of my lack of sleep i woke up on the RIGHT side of the bed (literally & figuratively) 

hahaha im so corny... :/ 

love, always

the brightside :)

me.

doesn't this picture remind you of just.. "BLAH"
well I couldn't have found any other picture as perfect as this to describe how i feel.
I just finished day 17 of insanity and i feel AWESOME but at the same time "blah" hahaha.

Aside from this, this week has brought about a lot of things that i didn't see coming.
I'm really not sure if anyone reads this, and i don't want you to think i'm some pessimistic person who only writes about depressing circumstances or problems that i have in my life.. but thats not the case at all.

This is my way of releasing everything i cant tell anyone in person.
... because no matter how much of a big deal it may be to me, no one and i mean NO ONE except one may ever really get how i feel.
But this problem... this one thing that i cant tell anyone not even YOU .. is the reason why i'm not directly telling anyone.. its the reason why its just me and this box in which i write. i really like it .. not only does it not judge me for feeling that way i do.. but even though it may not say anything in return..such as words of comfort or what not.. it is exactly why i love it.

These past few days... i have come to the realization that i may have lost the center of my life. we talk, we still have this incredible connection, we share feelings for each other that only you and i can only understand... but the problem is.. or where the disconnect enters is in the fact that you dont want to be in a relationship right now. I dont completely understand it, but im trying and i really want to.. not only for myself but for you. for some reason, no matter how much i want to accept it and respect your decision i just cant. what all of a sudden has triggered this change in mind? why after 5 almost 6 years of being together you decide that you want to see if this is really right? i know were young, i know theres so much out there.. but how come i know. How come i know at this very second in time that i want to be with you and that regardless of how young we are and how much is out there.. i know... i know that i want to be with you. Please tell me how come you dont know after so long.. the fact that your hesitant, or not wanting this right now hurts something deep within me. I cant even begin to explain.. not to you.. not to anyone. Please help me to understand. It's been so long and im not use to having my bestfriend, my love, my life just all of a sudden drop me like this. I dont know what to think, how to feel, but im hoping this is whats best for us.. for you. For the first time in my life, i feel abandoned by you and the comfort you once held over me and i miss it so much. i miss it so much, i miss YOU so much. come back to me.

love, always
even when its hard.

...

week 2 INSANITY laadeeDONE


happy sabbado!


love, always.

the weekend. yesterday. and today.

weekend:
my weekend officially began on Thursday after school & I thankfully had no school on Monday giving me an extra long weekend.

THE WEEKEND
Thursday: went to the prayer meeting.
Friday: Vespers
Saturday: Party at my house -_________- ahh
Sunday: 4th of July BBQ/Swimming @ Uncle Roberts: Happy Birthday
Daniel, Gav, & I met up with Zari, Abby, and Kevin & tried watching fireworks @ Hulda Crooks.
After... we had our own fun ^_^, tried watching Remember Me ... too slow for night time, and ate the biggest meal ive ever eaten at in&out ever at 1am in the morning -_- so much for insanity.
To some it ALL up, this weekend consisted primarily of EATING, FAMILY, FRIENDS, AND FUN

YESTERDAY
Monday: BBQ at Kuya Tims/Played a lot of ping-pong in the heat.. hence the sun burn on my face.
After... visited my parents @ auntie beths & played more ping-pong w/ my daddy.. ive missed them and they've missed me :/

TODAY
... I had a terrible dream last night.. maybe thats why...

Tuesday: I had school.. ive never woken up so tired & lifeless... it was so gloomy.. my body was in class but my mind, my energy, my everything was gone.
After, i went to daniels ate.. watched the tooth fairy.. fell asleep at the ending... slept more.. and still had NO energy in me to wake up!

... I had another terrible dream..

WHATS WRONG WITH ME TODAY!!!!!


Finally went home, didn't feel the least bit good.. I felt empty...
GOT HOME DID INSANITY.. day 8 .. and now i sit here..

trying to finish remember me..


ugh. this is pointless. hope no one reads it.. just wanna empty out.

I realized im empty because i need you Lord, Help me find the energy, the love, a reason.. I NEED YOU.


love, always
the tired one.

proof.

day 5 insanity proved to me that if i can get through a full week than i can get through the whole program..

it was pretty intense.

im glad im doing this.

love, always

God.

Everyone needs you, but especially Nell & the Arrogante Family.

I personally didn't know the family but it hurts.
I can only imagine what the family is going through,
but we leave it ALL in your hands.
You know what's best and if we truly believe... all things will work for the greater good.

Treasure those around you, love them unconditionally, and do NOT take them for granted.

i love you Lord

Love, Always
the disheartened one.

insanity day two.

i committed a crime!
.... i ate FASTFOOD... not just any fast food...
greasy, fatty, life-ending FAST FOOD.

i failed & gave in to temptation :/ never again? NEVER AGAIN!


INSANITY DAY 2 is:
DONE GONE FINITO TAPOS

ptl

ps: i hope & pray that my workout ate away at some of the trash i ate :]

love, always
the criminal

insanity.

yesterday:
_summer school.. week 2
_insanity fitness test: it was ONLY the fitness test and i literally died..
this is only the beginning... im scared.
(my sister and i decided to be workout buddies, get back into shape, and make a pact to finish INSANITY... hopefully we reap the benefits of our soon to be hardwork)
_took the most wonderful nap
_tried so hard to do my english rough draft, only to stare at the paper for 5 hours (biggest writers block).. finally got my thinking cap working .. at 12am.. and finished at 1:30

today:
_summer school.. week 2, day 7
_insanity.. day 1... no doubt ill feel it tomorrow.. it was INSANE.

love, always
the tired one.

yesterday.

DAY:
drove to newport with zari
ate bearflag ahi poke
went to huntington beach
got stuck in MAJOR traffic on the way back
tried so hard to find a McDonalds for some sweet tea!!!
(finally found a visible one half way home :)

NIGHT:
vespers @ inland: Mickey "mini-mouse" was the speaker's name according to the lady in back of me.
ahahahhahahahahahaha
cucas. zohan. youtube.

& daniel .. had a civil talk with him and we realized a lot. :/
in short, regardless of what came out of it... he always has my heart.

THE END.

love, always

surprise.

its funny how the only reason why i feel compelled to touch my blogspot is when things go wrong.
times when emotions are better expressed written than said.

so im once again standing where i was a few months ago.
you're gone, LIKE THAT... once again.

i guess its been on your mind for a while because i dont think it just happened
what i said, what i did... triggered something inside of you.

i said im sorry..
& you said im sorry..

but i didnt see what was coming next..
you were sorry BECAUSE you decided "you've given up on me"

those words, the WORST words i've ever heard come out of your mouth
melted my heart in ways even... chocolate, ice-cream, or anything capable of melting have ever been exposed to.

ugh... that was lame.. but idk..

"im giving up on you" it plays back over and over and over in my head..

for some reason its not the fact that you broke up with me that hurts the most...
its the fact that your giving on me. the fact that you actually said.. the one person i swore wold never ever...actually gave up on me.


help me Lord.


love, always
the brokenhearted

i didnt move.

i like blogspot better.

i think..

im moving to tmblr


Livelovelaughleanne.tumblr.com

home.

my parents just got back from the PI yesterday
so my sister & i decided to visit them.
feels good to be home, refreshing in a way ^_^
.. they brought me back what i asked for



sweetness???
yeeeee "Pride of the Philippines" hahaha
...being that i moved from home..
its made me realize a thing or two
how vital PARENTS are
& how the home will always be where the heart is..
regardless of how much we feel like we want to get a way
& experience a sense of freedom & independence
we will always be led back to what was real
and HOME was real.

btw: only one day away & i miss you too :]
see you tomorrow :]


& since i havent been a faithful writer..
i feel the need to tell you guys that school has been quite stressful
im taking 19 units -_-
5 classes 4 of which are with daniel.
its been good.. but im EXTREMELY annoyed at the fact that daniel has beat me on every assignment thus far.
... i guess it should motivate me to "try harder & do better" but i dont see how ..
anyways.. im proud of him.
...but i want so BADLY to beat him. hahahaha
this is NOT normal for me.

I..

dont know what im passionate about..
& i dont know what im good at.


makes me terribly sad.

once again.

things are in there right places.



but i constantly question whether or not im doing the right thing.
.. am i settling?

NEVER settle.

Do what feels right.
Do what is right.

How do i know?


... i dont even know what im saying.
bye

love.

theres a chair,

thats right next to the wall that i lean on.

glad i have someone to lean on.

ANYWAYS
... things have been looking up.
slowly finding my way...

rebuilding relationships have been a success.
NOT only with my best friend but with God.

Oh how ive missed you & oh how He's been so good to me.
i have so much to be thankful for & i have yet to realize how grateful i should be.

its been awhile since ive updated..
but so much has happend that i dont even know where to start...

BUT ALL THAT REALLY MATTERS IS THAT I HAVE YOU LORD

Theres been a sudden change in weather, very very wet... its kind of nice and relaxing.
and as bad as it sounds.. im kind of glad daniel & i didnt get a winter class & have been off for 6 weeks (keep it on the down low) its been a time to enjoy everything, relax, and spend real time with each other.

new home. new start. new mindset.

YOU.

you understand me.
you make me laugh.
you make me smile cheek to cheek.
you make me feel like im the most important thing in the world.
you make me feel like im special, someone, me.

but right now..

you drive me insane.
you make me say things i dont mean
you frustrate me like no other.
you make me angry to where it effects my digestion.
you make me cry like a waterfall.
you dont understand me.
&...you LIKE embarrassing me :(


right now.. we're on opposite sides of the spectrum.
lets meet somewhere please?

waaaaaah. ^_^

you make me feel so giddy inside
i cant even talk right
my heart pounds
my stomach churns
i cant stop smiling

... sometimes i dont even care if we dont say anything.

THIS ISNT ME
i always know what to say

oh boy, what have you done to me?
-----------------------------------------

school today: ive been praying i get this class. its a must. if NOT, im going job hunting to make me some cha ching.

GOAL: to be the pursued not the pursuer.

STOP.

pursuing & go with the flow.

... if its real, true, & right

then it'll come.



..wish i could tell you.

what the

!@#$%^&* am i doing!!!???
i'm freakin' ridiculous.

LEANNE MINIMO
you can NOT have both & you better choose RIGHT NOW!

-_- think hard.

fresh.

is it bad to say that i need to refresh 2010 already!?

2009:
cant really remember anything worth stating.. which is incredibly sad.

Thank you Lord for another year
-getting me through highschool
-protecting me & all my love ones daily.

i ask for your continued guidance and protection this year.

PLEASE: let 2010 be different..spiritually, emotionally, and physically.

PS: i think that 2009 has definitely re blossomed & strengthened old & new friendships.

...im glad to have you guys in my life, to comfort me & support me..

to state one of many: zari leigh caragdag
we both went through so much this year & i am utterly grateful we had each other to push us up that steep steep incline ILOVEYOU

&to the new, we'll see what else this year brings for us :]