idk.

i don't know:
where you are
how you're doing
how you feel
if you miss me
or if you even need me.

...this has certainly been the longest ive ever fully NOT talk to you.
its sucks..

(writing in here helps me release so much sadness, anger, etc..)

my feet are in quick sand & im trying to move forward.
i need some help.

i dont think anyone but you understands how i feel.
its a terrible & scary thought that you're probably the only person who ever really understands me.
what now? who now.. is there for me?

where are you? tell me
how are you? tell me
how do you feel? tell me
do you miss me? tell me
& do you still need me? tell me

Today...i forgot... but only for a moment. :/

i have SOOO much to tell you about today.. things id usually tell you..
(i saw karen, karens live in boyfriend, rachelle, and frank)..ugh so much to say, wish i could.
..dont even feel like returning, just want to stay here in sunland...where its a little less lonely.

i found one last thing to atleast give me a glimpse into my curiosities concerning you..
ill keep it a secret... please let me keep it.